FINAL

1: Some of the pieces I have done were; Photo writing, which we create a poem from a photo we already had or a photo we found, The Millennium picture which for me I wrote about how that picture made me feel about humanity and all we have become. I did the lyric shuffle which I especially liked because it combined my two favorite things, poetry and music.

2: I spent a lot of time this semester reading and writing like no other, one of my favorite things I read was a poetry book called “I don’t belong here myself” and its full of poems by many different writers and its one of my best investments.

3: Setting up by blog was hard and easy at the same time. I wanted it to be a place that reflected me and all that I am and aspire to be. The name kind of came naturally to me because I always wanted a blog named that I just never made one. I have learned from this that no matter who I chose to be someone will always listen to what I have to say even if they don’t agree. I will definitely continue to use my blog every day after this class and hope Mrs. Fraser will continue to leave little comments ;)  Like I always have I will continue to post whatever is going through my head at the time and hope someone takes the time to read my work.

4: journaling has definitely become a huge part of my life because it has become an outlet for when I can’t say what I’m thinking and I’m forever grateful to my teacher for showing me how freeing it can be, I would not like anyone to read it because its like my mind. Everything I write comes straight from my head and I don’t want anyone in there.

5:  Coffee Stains

Coffee stains added to the pages of my journal, accompanying the stale mascara marks,

Dripping onto my pages creating an untold work of art.

It’s like reading all the memories of my past by coffee and makeup stains, Recreating my horrifying past..

6: The thoughts are flooding my mind, drowning my soul. Its 4 IN the morning and I’m staring at my ceiling fan, thinking of everything in my life, how I messed up, how people are so oblivious to everything. And I burry my face in my pillow, not so silently screaming out all my frustration’s. More and more thoughts fill my head and clouding my mind, vision and feelings. No words can explain this feeling, I physically cannot put these feelings into words and it scares me. It scares me because if I can’t explain how I’m feeling than how can I ever fix myself. How can I ever be normal again.

7: I want to major in writing so in continue to do this as long as I can honestly. I see myself writing and only writing in the future. I get a sense of pride whenever I write, like someone wants to listen to the words I’m too scared to speak and it makes me a stronger person.

8: I’m not sure what I’m supposed to say but I’m going to try to be encouraging and say that I have enjoyed this class so much and look forward to seeing where you lives take you guys.. XX

9: it’s not a piece but I wanted to thank you Mrs. Fraser for teaching me so much this semester and look forward to our trip XX

Photo Writing

 

When I lie on the ground, unable to pick myself up,

You are always the one to pick me up off the ground.

When my self-esteem has plummeted,

You are the one to tell me I’m beautiful.

I’m scared when my days with you come to an end, you are everything to me,

My best friend, my brother, my lifeline.

I am scared of what I might become when you leave to start your life.

You have taught me so much, and given me my life back,

Without you I fear the worst.

That you for being my everything,

Thank you for dealing with all my drama when I was too broken to do it myself,

For protecting me when no one else did,

And for putting back together all my pieces when I fell apart.

That you for being everything I needed. I hope I can pay you back one day.

Millennium picture

Some people need to take a step back, realize not everything in about looks. This is real life, people struggle every day to find water. While some people are literally living on the streets others are spending $500 on a pair of shoes. I get so disgusted because much like the people in this picture they don’t realize the struggle other people have, that the world doesn’t revolve around them. The three girls in this picture describe America’s society perfectly, people only care about money. You can do anything you want if you have the money, but the people that don’t have money or “connections” are treated like animals. All I’m trying to get across is people need to learn that there are real life problems going on, like war, starvation, homelessness. Not just problems like if your purse matched your jacket. No one realizes that these people need help and the people who are struggling to support themselves help support other that need it more than wealthy people do. I guess what I’m trying to get across is that no poem, or piece of writing can explain what this picture says about America.

lyric shuffle

Lyric Shuffle

 

‘Cause I’ve never been so high

And you’re the only thing I want to touch and I can’t go down in flames.

Darling I will be loving you ‘til we are 70

Oh, let me take you past our satellites cause you’re the fear, I don’t care

Cause we’re young and we’re reckless

But I never knew that it could mean so much, so much

And the high was worth the pain

So it’s gonna be forever and I love you when you’re singing that song.

101 things about me

101 Things about me

1. Im tall
2. I wear a lot of dark clothing
3. My eyes change colors
4. I have freckles on my eyeballs
5. I have three freckles on my lips
6. I have had red, pink, blue and purple hair in a span of 4 months
7. I learned to gold as soon as I could walk
8. I have never seen the lion king
9. I have an obsession with going to concerts
10. Every summer I work at an animal shelter
11. I don’t know 101 things about myself
12. I drive a cream colored jeep
13. I model
14. I ride horses and compete
15. I have 3 horses
16. I want to travel the world
17. I have only been out of the county twice
18. I still have no clue what I want to do with my life
19. I’m terrified of falling in love
20. I get angry easy
21. I love old rock music
22. I live off of trying to make people happy
23. I wear bi-focal glasses
24. I try to live my life to the fullest
25. I am insane about books
26. I once read an entire book in two hours. It was 400 pages.
27. I’ve gotten in three car accidents
28. I passed out my first time giving blood
29. I have a giant bear that I sleep with and it have a KU jersey on. Even though I hate KU
30. I love to write
31. I can grill some bomb steaks
32. I like to prove people wrong
33. I once punched a guy because he said I was too much of a girl and I couldn’t do it. To this day he still hates me
34. I also won a burping contest in 5^th grade because someone said I couldn’t
35. I am obsessed with video games
36. If I could do one thing I’ve always wanted to, I would jump off a cliff but I would live
37. I hate school
38. Small children scare me
39. I can’t type worth crap
40. This list has taken me all class
41. I love baths
42. I haven’t went a day in ten years where I didn’t listen to music
43. I give in to peer pressure easy
44. I have never regretted a decision I have made
45. I really love food
46. People don’t really like me
47. I will be 17 in 10 days
48. I got detained in Kansas City a couple months ago to trying to jump through this guy’s car window then got in a screaming match with the guards
49. That might have been the most rebellious thing I have done
50. I have been punched in the face three times now
51. I’ve only ever broken one bone I my body, which was my finger
52. I have a kicking prom dress
53. I’m too scared to wear heals because I’m so tall
54. My dad once sent a truck load of manure to someone’s house because they pissed him off
55. I cant sing to save my life
56. I’m so uncoordinated its scary
57. I have a bad issue with authority
58. I’m like super lame
59. I am 5’11
60. I am a victim of the One Direction infection
61. I think modest is crap
62. 62 facts in and I still don’t know 101 things about me
63. As much as I love books, I’m a huge geek for movies, anything superhero
64. I don’t like sweets
65. But I love salty things
66. I have an older sister who is twenty but only like 5’4
67. I’ve had a crush on the same guy for a year now but I’m too scared to say anything
68. As shy as I am I am also very blunt
69. I think revenge is best served cold
70. If you couldn’t tell I am I very vengeful person, I never let things slide
71. I have a passion for fashion
72. I am only 114 pounds but I eat so much that it’s probably not healthy
73. I have massive trust issues
74. I dream of a life outside of Missouri
75. I’m still undecided about college
76. I’m afraid to use public washrooms
77. I have 700 forks sitting in my closet
78. I accidently killed 4 fish in 24 hours
79. One wasn’t dead when I flushed him, I thought he was though
80. I don’t know how to handle affection or compliments
81. I want to do so many things but they aren’t what my family expects from me
82. I love sleep.
83. But I absolutely hate sleeping alone
84. I have a really bad habit of laughing in inappropriate situations. My friend once told me her grandpa died and I laughed…
85. My mom is a stranger to me
86. I’m scared this old man I always see will do something to me…
87. The same guy that I’m scared to tell my feelings to, I’ve been on and off with him for 13 months.
88. I really don’t like people. At all.
89. I still hate my ex for dumping me two weeks before prom.
90. I’m really not a good influence.
91. I am still really confused as to why people are scared of me.
92. My dad died when I was 11 years old.
93. The last thing I said to him was “I love you daddy, call me in the morning”
94. Leslie is sitting next to me and really annoying me right now
95. I love the idea of sitting around eating pizza with my boyfriend more than I actually like pizza…or want a boyfriend.
96. I get angry way to easily
97. I aspire to be everything selena Gomez is
98. To watch my mom be so in love with my dad, then so miserable with her boyfriend honestly scares the piss out of me. I just want her to be happy.
99. I’m scared because when I’m around this certain guy I’ve been talking about I’m so happy and carefree. And that frightens me
100. I love my body but at the same time I’m so hard on myself about my appearance
101. I’m surprised I made it to 101 honestly